How many aura did I lose

How many aura did I lose when I booked a flight to see him bc I didn’t want to accept it ended but he got mad threatening to delete all our messages in telegram so I cancelled it then changed my mind in 24 hrs and rebooked another flight to see him. He eventually let me and thinking it was gonna be okay now. Except there was a reality that I kept denying and I begged and begged. It made it worse bc he eventually kept pushing me and pushing till he had to carry me and throw me in the bed. How many aura did I lose when he ripped of the album of us he got us and I kept crying so he pushed my head in the bed to tell me to shut up and threw a stack of pictures in my head. How many aura did I lose when he felt bad and I said I forgave him right away. Every time I begged and become desperate it got worse, he eventually took the last pictures of us and chopped it with favorite cleaver. I kept crying… part 2? Need some time before I continue