Difficult weekend

This was a very difficult weekend for us.  We sent our oldest son off to college about 5 hours away.  Not close enough to go visit him in an afternoon.  So far away but yet close enough where we can still visit.  I kept telling myself he is not going to Iraq he is not going to Iraq. 
I think he got a little teary eyed leaving Saturday morning.  I saw him wipe his eyes a few times.  It was probably about leaving his friends and not his parents.   He was pretty sad about leaving his dog too.  It has to be a huge adjustment for him.  New city, new school, new friends, new environment.  He said he wasn’t nervous but who wouldn’t be?  I am sure he will adjust.  I thought I would just start sobbing when we left him, but he was headed off to a meeting with about 5 other people so we said our quick goodbyes in the lobby.  Trying not to embarrass him.  I think my husband took it hard, but I held a strong face.  Until we walked in the door when we got home.  It just felt so empty, so quiet, so different.  I almost lost it there.  I got a grip of myself and just was feeling so depressed.  It’s still lingering a little, but school starts tomorrow for him and he will be busy.  Probably won’t be thinking about us much at all.  Just hanging with his roomy and his g-friend.  I worry that I am not there if something should happen or if he gets sick.  But I guess we have to let him grow up sometime. 
His room mate is totally different then my son.  He likes dirt bikes and 4 wheelers and getting dirty, nothing like my son.  But hey his dad and I couldn’t be any different either. 
So it’s quiet except for when the younger son comes out of his cave (bedroom) and gets loud and then returns after a few minutes.  No loud guitars or loud girlfriends or loud anything coming from the older son for a while.  It’s gonna be different.  Hubby talks alot so that will make up for some of the noise.  Well I took a picture of the dog, and he wants me to send a picture once a week of her.  I guess that is what  I will do now. 
Peace out!
ME