Marry

As crazy as this sounds… I really can see me spending the rest of my life with Cookie…
I would be so happy… If I got the chance to I would… I would give up so much just for Cookie…
Because I love you Cookie…
I really do… I hate not being able to share my feelings for you…
It hurts me so much…
I could go and just give you that 7page letter… And give you rgese entries I am writing…
I want to, But as much as I want to I dont want to…
My guess is that what I have writin… And its only the truth…
It would scare you away from me… it would make you really want to keep away fro me…
Cos I might have been feeling like this for a long time… But you dont know that… U dont know how I feel… U dont know what I keep inside of me…
Sometimes I guess the truth is better off not told…
But you mean so much to me Cookie… U mean so so so much to me… And you habe no idea… U have no idea at all… And its my fault you have no idea…. I should have never left you feeling the way you did for me… I should have come bak up and seen you not long after I met you the first time… I should have takin up your offer of coming up and staying at your place and going to the snow with you…
I would have felt lie I was in heaven… I always do when I am talking to you in any way or form…
If I was payed all the money one person could need I wouldn’t stop feeling the way I do right now…
The only way I would hide what I am feeling right… As I said before, U would have to tell me you dont want to hear it from me…
I go through so much pain feeling like this for you Cookie… But it also gives me so much happiness…
I think I have let out now… There is more… I know there is… I could sit here for hours… Probably even days going on about Cookie… But its enough for me to feel alright about my life… Its enough for my friends not to feel like there is somethink wrong with me