Ur My Kinda Man-hehe

Most of you people reading this wont know me, except through Luke that is-oh by the way thankyou for letting me enter something-isnt he the sweetest! Anyways…..i just thought i would let you all out there know just how special Luke is, even though he doesnt think so, and even though you reading this would already know it, but im gonna say it n e ways…..

to meet a person for the first time and end up knowing that there is something special about that person, is fairly significant. to know that you could never let that person go if u had the chance after just one night, is profound. the feelings that i get when i simply talk to him on the net makes me feel unbelievably happy, not to mention what i feel like when i get to see him in the flesh! my friends actually commented the other day that i was glowing, i was that happy! i know this is going to sound totally corny, but i feel so happy at the moment, i feel like i could burst! ive never met someone before that is so alike to me its scary. the same morals, the same attitude, the same “clingyness” as i like to call it.

ive been hurt in relationships before, and i know Luke has aswell, but it just seems to make our understandings of each other easier. i completely trust him (which is also a scary thing), but it doesnt scare me to trust him completely. “if you cant let people into your life, then you havent really lived”. i can see myself being very happy for a while, and i hope im not too much of a handful to contend with! Luke has told me that he can come off as mean or uncaring sometimes, but i honestly havent seen that side to him yet. i dont know if its just because i havent given him the chance to or what, but i somehow think i wont see it.

he sent me a letter the other day, it was the cutest thing i have ever read! did u know that its possible to make someone cry through a letter that just describes someones feelings?? well thats exactly what he did to me! but it felt good to read it. i havent exactly had the best few months lately, with year 12, and my parents not exactly being agreeable about anything i do, or dont do in this case. i now feel as though nothing could ever hurt me again, while im with him, which is weird coz ive normally gone out with ppl from school and kept my relationships seperate from my home life. but even at home i feel that nothing can get me down. its really hard to try and overcome some things-like a touch of depression, which is the road i was going down-by yourself, and to have someone there, even just to say how special i was, made a world of difference. it made me feel that there was someone out there that expected nothing from me, except to be myself.

for that i love him, because i somehow know that he will tell me what he is feeling, and if he doesnt i will have to bash him! i havent known Luke for very long, but it has felt like a lifetime! and i want you to know, Luke, that i feel very strongly about you, and that no one could ever make me change that-except you.

MMMMMWWWWAAAA!!!! -Mal-