ugh.

i’m still freaking sick.
this is really getting ridiculous.

i’d like to say that i’m slightly better because i seem to be functioning a little more. but the truth is, i’m just getting used to feeling like this and i’m trying to actually LIVE anyway…instead of being a lifeless blob cuddled up under my snuggie with a box of tissues. as long as i have my little miracle trifecta of drugs in my system (sudafed, ibuprofen & coffee……despite coffee not being an actual drug), i can get through the days. once i get past about 6pm, though….the coughing starts, and doesn’t stop until i fall asleep. which is like, midnight, since i can’t sleep because i’m coughing.

in short…..IT SUCKS!

luke’s birthday party is now only 6 days away. i’ve been sitting around, waiting to get better so i could get it planned and shopped for, but i just don’t have time to wait to heal anymore. this is day #9 of being sick. too many wasted days.

so this morning, i sat down and made a list of everywhere i have to go and what i need to get there, with the exception of food because i plan to do that later in the week. i have it alllllll planned out and i was ready to just hop in the shower & go around 10, and matt says he can’t watch luke because he has to work. i could bring luke, and may HAVE to….but i have FOUR stops to make. and taking him in and out of the car seat that many times…..well, it’s a nightmare. not only is it a total PITA, he HATES IT! hates. every time you put him back in he gets a little more mad. so even if i move quickly at all my stops, he will be miserable before i’m done with what i have to do. not to mention, i don’t feel the best. carrying around 25 extra pounds while heavily sedated and rushing through 4 stops doesn’t exactly sound…..fun.

matt said he’d try to rush through what he has to do, but i don’t think it’s gonna happen.
my mom is too sick to watch him.
(ps, my mom got sick about 8 days before me so she’s on day 17 of this. FREAKING A i cannot be sick this long!!!!)

my only hope is if my sister wakes up and says she’ll watch him so i can go.
but i don’t think she will. and i wanted to go early so i could beat the crowds.

i’m frustrated, if you couldn’t tell.

if i didn’t have all this stuff to do (i would feel so freaking relieved if i could JUST get the shopping done) i would just relax and make cards and scrapbook, but i can’t feel settled until i get something accomplished. i made it a personal goal to send everyone birthday cards this year (well, the closest family  & friends, to see if i could always do it….if i can, next year i’ll expand). i have 4 more to make for this month, and i’d love to do them today but i need a few things at one of my stops so i don’t want to do that til later.

ughhh. i’m just so anxious right now. i guess i’ll go shower and hope someone saves me somehow 🙂