ESCAPING DESIRES

ANTICIPATION

I don’t want this. I mean, I don’t want that I am starting to want it more. That intellectual push and pull.. That finally, someone can banter with you intellectually and emotionally. You want to deny it to yourself because you know it’s going to affect your whole being. But deep inside you, you know you wanted it. You want more. You are craving for more.. The more you resist, the more it affects your brain; your heartbeat.. The more you deny it to yourself, the more you get angry and start to think of it more. It’s funny how WORDS affect my mood.. Your choice of words.. Indirect words that affect my soul. It’s nerve-wracking. I am afraid.. but I am starting to want more. HELP.