SEPARATED LIFE

WHERE DO I START?

I am 31. Working from home. No kids but I have a dog. She’s 1 year 9months. ‘Illegally’ single since  2022..I don’t know my plans. Or maybe I already know my plans. I just deny the fact that I am stuck. I cannot go anywhere. Or I really don’t deny it at all. I just learned how to go with the flow. PLANS? Yeah right. I do have payment plans. Until when? I don’t know. I just can’t wait to win 100million dollars. I wish. All I know is, that chunk of money would change my life in an instant. FOR SURE. That way, I can get to places I want, get that visa I want, bring my dog with me anywhere, get that health card I want, buy that car I want, relocate to anywhere I want.. I will pay everything and everyone I have to. PAY that separation fee ON THE SPOT… So I don’t have to deal with the social stigma of not to be with someone ‘married’ despite being physically alone and separated for years but because of financial incapacity, you just can’t get out of it so you just sweep it off your feet..

It’s tiring. It’s tiring denying the fact that it gets lonely…  It gets sadder when someone you know makes a move but then holds back when you confessed you’re ‘separated’. I understand.  That’s how our society has taught us about ‘marriage’. But why partners who ‘LIVE-IN’ are viewed differently in the society? When in fact they are considered ‘ILLEGALLY MARRIED’? Why is it easier for the society to accept someone who just came from an ILLEGALLY MARRIED situation than to accept someone who’s illegally separated when in fact they were in the same situation just without the papers?

Sometimes I hope I just didn’t know too much. Because the more you know, the more life complicated is… #separated