Fed up with Christmas already!

In the shop we’ve has Christmas music being played since OCTOBER! It’s so busy everyone’s all moody and squashed in there and they take it out on me and the other work girls!! Bloody customers. Working in a card shop only at the weekends when hardly anyone works – SO many people come in to get their Christmas stuff! We’ve had so many deliveries there’s no where to put it all. Grr.

Can;t wait until college is over I fucking HATE HATE HATE this class. SO FUCKING LOUDD!! Half of the class is quiet /just chats to each other. And the side of the other class? Lol. THEY DO FUCKING CHAT BUT FUCKING SHOUT THINGS TO EAHCH OTHER!! I can’t even hear myself think half of the time neither can Jade and Kareen. I don’t know if Larissa’s getting pissed off about it.. But it’s seriously affecting how I work. For the first and second year and I went to college, I actually wanted to come in. I enjoyed the people in my class and the work was ok.

I could be doing a fucking full-time job atm!! I’m completely skint. I have been for about 3 weeks because I had to wait 5 weeks until I got paid and I had to pay ALL BILLS. I HATE LIVING ON MY OWN. The only thing I actually spent on myself was going to Thorpe park on the day I got paid that was just £40. I get paid next Friday. FUCKFUCKFCUK. I’m not eating properly. And yes, I am worried about myself.

Christmas is 5 weeks away, I have tons of bills to pay ONCE again and my Orlando Florida payment is coming out again £56 and I still need to buy SO much presents. 🙁 🙁 🙁

So unhappy at college just wanna leave and go into full time employment but I might as well just stick to this shitty course and go all the way to the end. 6 fucking months left 🙁 It’ll get me a better job. I’m not even learning anything this year.

Hopefully it’ll be just after xmas that I move into the new place. Just wanna start decorating it!! I really don’t wanna be in the flat I’m in atm with Jack because I won’t be able to decorate it or anything. It’ll just get ruined or smoked up with weed. I’m getting so much help with it.. 🙂

I’m off.

Hmmph. xxxxxx