a short report. part two

 Last Saturday, I took my last dose of Ritalin.  The next couple of nights, my schedule returned to "normal" – in fact, a couple of nights, I was in bed by 11, and have, since I stopped taking it, woken up BEFORE the alarm clock.  I called the head doc and left a message; she got back to me a few days later and said "don’t take that anymore".

We have an appointment on Tuesday and she’ll prescribe a different medication – Aderal, or something.  Ha ha ha, now I have a small supply of "speed" – the Ritalin acted like speed for me.  I felt GOOD taking it, but staying up until sunrise and sleeping ALL DAY was more than a little ridiculous.  (It would have been VERY GOOD when I was delivering newspapers; I was up most of the night anyway).

The Zoloft is giving me no problems.  I was taking that in 2002 and it helped me get back to work – I started at the Oregon Zoo and worked there 13 months – until they "privatized" the gift shop I worked in and gave away my hours to cute young girls that the new lesbian manager wanted to stare at.

Couple of times in my life, lesbians have screwed me over.  Since I live in San Francisco North, I suppose that’s a location risk.

It’s been kind of nice to wake up early in the day – the other night I faded by 9 and was up again at 5:30 – the WHOLE day to work with!

Obviously, I have not been here on OD much lately – this is what, my third  fourth entry for the month?

I haven’t taken any pictures lately and I still have to upload all the pics I took last month – I had them uploaded and ready to edit, and lost them, when I had to re-format the computer.  I realized that the SSD that I had bought last year was too small – just 30 Gb, which was filled too quickly, and I had to use a bigger optical drive that I had – now I’m using a 150 Gb drive and have LOTS of space… but I still need to work on the last set of pictures.

We can tell I’ve been Johnny on the spot with that, eh?

While the balcony is silent and I haven’t been thinking all that deeply about "to be here or not to be" and that’s a good thing.  Some interests and joys in my life have been put on hold, I guess.

No details, but the sexual problems I was experiencing on the Ritalin are gone.

(I decided to edit that to just the one line)

Onwards, if not in a straight line.