A Christmas like no other

It’s been a tragically awful year with the pandemic, economic catastrophe, and criminals in the White House.  Who would ever imagine our “democracy” would take this kind of deep dive toward oblivion, this quickly?  Oh, and lest we forget, amidst all the mayhem unleashed in the past four years, there’s the very real prospect of complete civilizational collapse in a matter of decades from the wholly human-caused global warming that will only increase exponentially while our leaders dither with piecemeal solutions.

But instead of despair,  I’m going to have some hope that we can at least begin to turn the corner with a fresh start in Washington come January 20.  God has shown mercy on us poor wretches who seem to be stricken with evolutionary and enlightenment dysfunction and malaise.

Think about what kind of world the youngest among us will inherit.  What kind of agony will be inflicted on future generations by our stupidity, selfishness and greed?  Will we wake up in time and will the younger generations rise to the challenge of saving us from our collective folly?

I got a special parcel in the mail today.  It was a Peanuts pop-up Christmas card with a lighted tree and a Christmas song sung by all the gang.  What a delight and a treasure.  I had to smile.  Thinking of Snoopy, Charlie Brown, Woodstock and the entire band of lovable characters made me smile.  It’s the simple things that make us happy oftentimes.  This was all the Christmas present I needed, and it was from none other than me.

This Christmas promises to be sad and lonely, I’ll be honest,  with my mother no longer here.    The house will be quiet.  No more part/time caregivers, home aides and Hospice nurses and social workers coming and going.  My sister and her family will remain in Seattle, unlike last year when they were all here. I will  visit my brother at the beach, take a long walk, and recall rich associations of the past ,   It’s going to be tough, and it’s going to be lonely, but I’ve become a crusty old survivor as I near my 70th year.  It truly amazes me that I’ve lasted this long.  And I’m grateful.  Despite having no family of my own I’ve lived a full and useful life.  I’m still struggling with things.  Who isn’t?

So as Christmas nears I will try my best to focus on the true meaning of the season.  And I’ll have my memories of so many wonderful Christmases with all the family at my aunt’s house.  She truly loved This time of year, and I’ll never forget all she did for me.  She made Christmas a joyous and much anticipated time of year.

Finally, this.  I like to dream about old-fashioned Christmases of long ago, and who could capture their beauty and simplicity better than Lee Stroncek, one of my favorite artists.  Enjoy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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December 22, 2020

The sooner Trump leaves the White House, the better. These next 20-plus days are going to be nerve-racking. I feel for you on this first Christmas alone. It’s the number attached to my being that always seems like such a disconnect. I don’t feel what I thought 66 would feel like. It’s a shame our bodies betray us so by not reflecting our inner selves.

One of the things I’ve never understand about believers is how God is credited for “showing mercy,” yet is not held responsible for not intervening to prevent those bad things from happening in the first place.

December 22, 2020

@solovoice   Yes, Trump has been a four-year living nightmare along with his deplorable family and the band of brigands, misfits and toadies that surround him.

We have to do our best To keep our aging bodies from departing prematurely.  It’s a huge struggle after a certain age.

The  question you raise is one of the central  paradoxes of Christianity.   God does intervene  much more often than we realize, but not on our terms, and we have to seek it and be worthy of it, at least as much as we humanly can be.  It also goes back to the healing properties of suffering.  Paradoxically, without that I would be nowhere near where I am along the spiritual path I think all of us are on.

The country was spared in this last election, and it was a close-call, very sadly.  So what I’m trying to say also is that there are mysteries we’ll never grasp and solve in this life.  Some of the more enlightened among us come close, however.

December 22, 2020

This is a lovely entry of sadness and hope. I feel much the same way, and most of the time hope keeps the upper hand.  I’m not so much amazed that I’ve survived, but I’m surprised to find myself this age. Other than the physical discomforts of age, I am still me. My memory is still intact, and it’s quite interesting to peel back the memories of so many years. Crusty, indeed!

December 22, 2020

@chalandra   Thank you!  What interesting words of wisdom you have shared here.  I am still me after all these years, and thankful my memory is still largely intact and serves me well.  But yes, considering the depths of depression I have been through, I can truly call myself a survivor.  The life force within me was too strong to let that foe win.  God had other plans in store for me than succumb to that mental scourge some of us are gravely afflicted with.    I am forever grateful to my mother for inspiring and instilling in me a deep appreciation for Nature, beauty, and aesthetics and for trusting in God.  She was a very powerful person of prayer.

 

 

December 22, 2020

I’m with you on wishing for a big family Christmas — an old fashioned kind of one.  I come from a small family so I’ve never had that, and it’s not likely to come my way at my time of life.  I’ve really worked on giving up my expectations, and it’s made how I handle Christmas different.  Letting go of those old dreams … it’s so very hard to do, but so worth the effort.

I’m glad you have your brother near enough to spend some time with, and a long walk on the beach sounds like good medicine for the soul.

December 24, 2020

Happy Christmas Oswego!  I enjoy your entries so much, and look forward to many more in 2021.

December 26, 2020

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hello merry christmas.. where are you from, how is family and kids