Scared , alone and isolated

I’m scared and alone. I have no friends and I’m just scared of a relaps. I won’t have  my mom to talk to anymore. I barely talk to my dad. My eyes hurt because I force myself to stay awake. I just want to be able to Skype someone but I’m to shy.I was Never Shy Growing Up Now I Just Feel Isolated. Im scared of what is inside my head. I often over think things. Then I freak out. Only because I think The worst things are going to happen.