2003, i guess.

why do i do silly things like these?

1. what did you do in 2003 that you’d never done before? been from home for two weeks.
2. did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i don’t do resolutions.
3. did anyone close to you give birth? no.
4. did anyone close to you die? yes. my hamster.
5. what countries did you visit? holland.
6. what would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? love. understanding. friends.
7. what date(s) from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? 5th of january, evelien broke up with me. 26th of february, i met rolf. 28th of august, tigo died just when i returned from spending two weeks with rolf.
8. what was your biggest achievement of the year? making it into the next grade. go me.
9. what was your biggest failure? losing all motivation for school.
10. did you suffer illness or injury? i think i was sick for exactly one day.
11. what was the best thing you bought? the guinea pigs.
12. whose behaviour merited celebration? nobody’s.
13. whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? eveliens. robbes.
14. where did most of your money go? the state. stupid train-tickets.
15. what did you get really, really, really excited about? being with rolf for two weeks in july and august.
16. what song will always remind you of 2003? stupid songs like 50 cent, stacy orricho and good songs, like just like heaven from the cure. oh, and that one song by the cheeky girls. it was playing in some snackbar on my first day with rolf.
17. compared to this time last year, are you:
– happier or sadder? happier.
– thinner or fatter? thinner.
– richer or poorer? richer. mom gave me a raise.
18. what do you wish you’d done more of? visiting rolf. cuddling with the guinea pigs. schoolwork.
19. what do you wish you’d done less of? crying.
20. how did you be spend christmas? with rolf’s parents. wasnt as scary as i thought it’d be. but dont tell rolf.
21. did you fall in love in 2003? yes.
22. how many one-night stands? err. none.
23. what was your favourite tv program? buiten de zone. <3
24. do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? i dont think i actually hate people.
25. what was the best book you read? the hobbit. it amused me.
26. what was your greatest musical discovery? the rediscovery of the cure. getting into placebo more.
27. what did you want and get? the kiss me kiss me kiss me cd.
28. what did you want and not get? rolf forever.
29. what was your favourite film of this year? le fabuleux destin d’amélie poulain.
30. what did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i did absolutely nothing. i turned 18.
31. what one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? if some people wouldn’t have been there, and some people more.
32. how would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? haha.
33. what kept you sane? the guinea pigs.
34. which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? robert smith. but ‘fancying’ is a stupid word.
35. what political issue stirred you the most? bush.
36. who did you miss? rolf. evelien, secretly sometimes.
37. who was the best new person you met? rolf.
38. tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003? you can’t depend on anyone but yourself. and school is useless.
39. quote a song lyric that sums up your year. broked bruised forgotten sore, too fucked up to care anymore.