Feel like hormones and shyness in human form

Hi. I’ve been struggling a bit recently about how I’ve been feeling and someone suggested I try journaling.  I like the idea of being anonymous so I can be completely honest but also maybe if some people recognise these feelings they can say.

I’m Poppy and I live with my mum and dad in England.
I’ve felt for a while now like my emotions aren’t mine, like I’ll suddenly feel something and not know why. For example my mum was talking to me the other night and I just suddenly felt really frustrated and annoyed for no reason. I tried to ignore it but I ended up snapping at her which I didn’t mean to. Other times I’ll just randomly feel sad or anxious or happy for no reason. I have other feelings too which I feel some guilt about.

I spoke to someone about it and I know a lot is hormonal. It’s just still very new for me. We talked about the guilt I feel and how this isn’t fair because I shouldn’t feel guilty for emotions.  I’m trying to deal with things as they come and try to work out what might be behind certain feelings.
I might be more open in my next entry. I don’t know what I’m allowed to say and not say.  Writing it down definitely helps even though it isn’t to anyone.

Poppy