10 Months

It is 10 months ago today that I had my last drink. I will officially be sober 10 months tomorrow.

One of my drinking buddies (he is still a friend, but not as much as we once were) has been talking about his girl problems to me lately. I believe it to be his attitude, he is very pessimistic. Girls can sense this and if they can sense it on the first date, why would they want to continue? If things shine through when you are on your best behaviour, imagine what they are like when you get to be comfortable with the person and your true self comes out. I told him this and he pretty much said he can’t change it. He then said, all this rejection makes him want to drink, and that he was going to do some serious drinking this weekend.

It feels good to be off the beer. It really does.

I went out last night to watch a soccer game with a few buds. While everybody at the pub seemed to be drinking beer. I ordered an iced tea and was quite comfortable sitting at the bar watching the game being surrounded by beer… with an ice tea.. (which when poured into a pint glass looks like a beer… minus the head).

After the game I stopped by a 24 hour grocery store to pick up a few things. I asked one of the grocery guys where something was, and I realized that I had seen/spoken with him before… I couldn’t put my finger on it… after about 5 minutes of thinking about it, it came to me where I had seen him. He was a regular at the pub I use to go to. I had sat with him on a few occasions at the bar and watched entire baseball games with him chatting. I couldn’t for the life of me remember what his name was. How sad is that? I had probably spent a total time of over 20 hours speaking with this guy… and I have no clue what his name is… and could barely remember that I had even spoken to him before! Man I was a mess drinking. It was hard to see at the time, but looking back… I was a mess. Drinking every night is not a way to live. Still 10 months being sober, nobody really knows the extent of my drinking since I did a lot of it alone at pubs, or alone at home. I hid it very well from people. When they thought I had only 2 pints while out… they didn’t know I had drank 4 before I went out… so it looked as if I was a casual drinker! HA.

Anyway… it is a great day to be sober!

Cheers guys.

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