5 Months

I know I haven’t been around much… I just haven’t had much to write about I guess. Mostly been watching the baseball playoffs, the start of the NHL season and the English premiership… I’m such a sports junkie, but hey, October and April are great sports months.

I realized something this morning. Today, it has been 5 months since my last drink. Almost half a year. There are times still where I want to drink, or have a drink like a “normal” person. I just take a step back and remember all the horrible things drinking does to me. It isn’t that way for other people, or maybe it is and they are fine with all the crap drinking brings. I just know what is best for myself… and drinking is not in my best interest. I would waste days on end doing nothing but drinking… I am starting to develop my hobbies again instead of drinking. I have been playing more bass guitar. Waking up earlier…naturally. Having more productive days. Just an overall better experience.

Alcohol on the breath is so overwhelming to me now. Was it always like this? Or has my sense of smell improved? I can smell beer on somebody’s breath from a few feet away. Can others smell this? Cause boy do I feel foolish, there were so many times I went out DRUNK and pretended like I was sober. No wonder some people drifted away from me.

Oh well, I am still working to be a better me. 5 months now feels pretty good.

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