A new start

Still feeling kind of low lately, which is weird for me because I am usually in very good moods.  I guess I just feel isolated.  I work nights, and my friends don’t call me anymore, they say because I am never “available” whatever the hell that means.  Even though I sleep during the time they are at work.  I call them to go out, they either have other plans, or don’t return my call.  I am moving in a couple days and almost everything is packed up ready to go.  My roommate sent out a mass email to our friends to ask for help during the move;  all we got were excuses as to why they couldn’t come.  Figures…

So it looks like it will be my roommate and I moving everything with my dad coming down to drive the truck (as I have never driven a 17 foot truck before and he has).  It’s all just kind of depressing how nobody seems to care that I am leaving, so perhaps this is good for me.  I will look at it as starting a new chapter in my life.  A new chapter without the thoughts of how that bitch Nicole abandoned me.  A new chapter where I can start finding some new friends, people who will be there for me not just when it is convienent for them.  A new chapter in a new town, a new home.

Music of the Moment: Radiohead – Optimistic
Today I Feel: abandoned.