Alive

Is this natural?  At times I am so in love with life that nothing can bring me down.  I just feel so damn good, healthy, strong.  It usually happens when a really chillin’ song comes on, a song that is full of passion, love, or just life.  Examples of songs like this are;
Blue Rodeo – It hasn’t hit me yet,
Ben Harper – Another lonely day,
Pink Floyd – Wish you were here.
Those songs just make me breath in deep and think “wow, I love living.” It’s a hard feeling to explain.

As I write this at work, I am watching the sunrise over the Toronto skyline.  Sunrises take my breath away.  Working nights, I watch them over lunch everyday.  It is amazing watching the world come to life before your eyes.  People told me when I started working nights, that I would become depressed.  I find this is hardly the case.  I feel I have become a much more laid back individual.  I am rarely angry anymore, and I feel so “at peace”.  Working days I found was a lot of unneeded stress, such as rushing around in the mornings to get to work, then sitting in rush hour traffic (which increases blood pressure drastically).  The list is endless, having my days free is great, even if I sleep most of the time.  I am not forcefully stuck somewhere if that makes sense.  I really feel I have become very calm and collective in the last year or so.  I am much different than I was 3 – 4 years ago.  Krystal use to say I was “so bitter, so young…”  I don’t think you could even relate a statement like that to me anymore.

I am so relaxed today.

Music of the Moment: The office is pretty silent.
Today I Feel: Phenominal