At the roadside

I’m in a routine now.  Working 9 – 5:30 everyday… going home, chatting with Kim or going to play soccer.  My skills have improved.  The leagues I am in just aren’t challenging anymore, although last game I couldn’t score if I tried… I had the chances, just couldn’t put the ball in the net.  I’m getting better, it’s just SO frustrating playing with people who can’t play at all.. The other night, I played in the O.H.S.L all-star game… it was sooooo refreshing to play with players who understand the game, and knew what you were thinking.  It was such a statisfying game, I had a smile for days.  I love this game.

Speaking of love… I think I am falling in love with Kim. Yeah… she’s my roommate, nothing more… but I don’t know what it is… I am in love with HER… we haven’t even kissed.  With Krystal, I liked her, then fell for her, after we had already had some physical stuff going on and got to know each other.  With Nicole, I really just liked her physically… and eventually I just became attached to being around her.  Kim… I don’t know what it is.. but I look forward to seeing her, to talking with her, to just being around her.  Of course, she doesn’t think the same about me… or does she?  She is so shy when it comes to that stuff, I don’t know what she thinks.  Kim and I have now lived togeather for about a year 1/2… and we both have the same living style… cleanliness, motivation, routines… it just makes sense, or well at this time it does.  How do you make a move on that though?  I feel so comfortable with her that I honestly might just say; “you know, I would really like to kiss you, is that ok?”

Bah, I shouldn’t dwell on stuff like that.  She isn’t mine… and she doesn’t feel that way about me.

Ashley at work I think is crushing on me.  I like her, but I don’t know if I want to get involved with her.  She seems like she has some drama… I don’t like stuff like that.  I prefer the straight way of life, just tell the truth and don’t make problems… she hides things I can feel it…and at times she comes off very cold, but her and I get along well.  Kim asks me questions about her all the time…

Music of the Moment: Rise Against – Roadside
Today I Feel: Overall, not bad