Day 103 (Flashback)

I am almost through 103 days.  Things have gotten easier, but I still crave to have a beer from time to time.  Today I was reading through my journal from years ago, when I first started to get into this mess.  All I ever wrote about was smoking weed, dropping acid, eating mushrooms, rolling on ecstasy  or drinking beer.  I have some stories written down that I totally forgotten about.  It’s funny how things continued to progress, even if I did cut out the psychedelics.  Drinking became more and more prominant.  The parties died down from places like clubs and house parties to more private gatherings of only a few people.  Over time it because a one man show…. me.  It feels good to be climbing out of that hole now.  I’m not ashamed of those days, because they made me who I am today.  I just feel leaps and bounds away from that now, even if I do miss it from time to time.   When I say “miss” I don’t realy miss the highs of the drugs.  I think I miss the freedom… the endless late nights, the zero responsibility.  The dancing till the sun came up.  It all makes me smile.

I’m not saying life is no longer fun, it’s different.  I am friends with different people, do different things and create new experiences.  Although, the years 1999 – 2003 were my hippy sixties days.  It seems my favorite possession back then was my hacky-sack…. no joke.

Enough reminiscing, I have some chicken to cook for dinner.  I am trying a new kind of chicken for dinner.  My skills in the kitchen are getting better.   Ever women wants that right?  A guy that can cook? 😉

Music of the Moment: Paul Oakenfold – Live @ Dose Connected V.3 (I was there! :P)
Today I Feel: Alive. 🙂