Day 11

So Kelly sent me a facebook message last night… yes, you heard it right, a facebook message, giving me 60 days to move out.  I just moved, and when I moved in I asked her if this would be a problem and if I would be moving out 6 months later, she said no.  Well here we are 6 months down the road and I am looking for a new place.  Fuck.  I hate moving with a passion.

The place I am at right now is in prime location for me at this point in my life. Living on my own would cost quite a bit of more money, that I don’t want to spend because I have been trying to save for a house…. or at least a nice down payment.

I was thinking maybe I could ask my girlfriend to move in with me. We have been dating for almost 10 months now, but we have been friends for over 10 years. I really feel good about her. But would that be rushing it if I did?

Today is day 11. My mind keeps on telling me I don’t have a problem and a beer wouldn’t hurt. But then I say to myself. A normal person who didn’t have a problem wouldn’t dwell so much on having a beer. I gotta stay away from it, it’s not healthy for me. Last night I went over to my bud’s place. Both of them were drinking beer, which I found surprising they rarely drink. I could smell it on them. I was offered one, I said no thanks, and then Chris said; “Are you sure, it’s my last one and I’m not going to drink it.” I said; nah, it’s ok I have to get up early. (Which was a total lie, I have nothing to do today). I had brought a coke with me, so I drank that. The rest of the night was good, watched the jays game, and played Grand Theft Auto 4.

I really want a drink today, to help deal with this unneeded stress of having to find somewhere to live. I hate moving, I just moved 6 months ago. Grrr!!! I won’t drink, because I have to learn to cope with stress naturally and not through the false escape of alcohol, which only delays the stress.

I just went for a run after I wrote the previous, I felt stronger than last time I went out a few days ago.  I have a soccer game tomorrow night.

Day 11.

Music of the Moment:  Sam Roberts – Them Kids
Today I Feel:  Pretty good other than the moving situation.