Day 18

Feeling alright today.  It seems like so long since I have had a drink.  I think this is the longest I have gone since I was about 18 without drinking.  It feels good, to feel normal, and to look back at a day, and things to not be foggy.  I have also noticed I am far more hydrated now.

My GF is still not talking to me.  I still think she is waiting to see if I can make it to a month.  At the 1 month mark I will ask her to go out.  Because at that point, nothing is going to change.  I am just going to continue to not drink.  If she still can’t trust me, I guess she never will.  It is getting easier now, cravings are becoming further apart.

I am going to start running on April 1.  I am going to start training for this race that is at the end of August.  It is a 7.5 km race, or 5 Miles.  I won this race back when I was 15 with a time of 36 minutes 25 seconds.  My goal is to win again, but to try to break the 30 minute mark.  I am also making a very conscience effort to eat more healthy.  Tonight for example, for lunch (btw, I work nights) before I goto work I am having veal parmageian with a garden salad and brocolli with a cheese cream sauce.

I want to become the best I can possiblly be!  I want to prove to the world that I am just as strong (if not more than the average person)  I will not let alcohol or drugs control my life anymore.  I am going to become more active (I was already an active person) with hobbies and physical activity and eat healthier.  I will make my GF want me back, she will see that she won’t find anybody better than me.  I am changing for the better, and I am LOVING IT.

Music of the Moment: Incubus – Hilikus
Today I Feel: Confindent, strong, alive.