Day 23

I feel pretty good today, don’t think about drinking like I use to. Didn’t really cross my mind at all this weekend. Oh wait, nevermind it did…. a couple times. My weekend wasn’t anything very exicing. On Friday night I went out to my roommates hockey game…otherwise I would have been at home alone dwelling on my GF not talking to me still. Oh wait… before the hockey game there was some news. I told my roommate about my decesion to quit drinking. She had no idea I drank as much as I did. I hid it very well. Anyway… Her and I talked and I felt a whole lot better, because she is the first person to truly know why my GF isn’t talking to me. She told me that Nicole will talk to me again, she is doing this for my own good. So I can figure out this issue on my own, and not rely on somebody else. She said that I shouldn’t take it personally, she just wants to find out if I am serious about quitting which I am. That chat made me feel a lot better inside. I really miss Nicole, not a day has gone by where I haven’t thought about her. I think about her more than I think about not drinking. Drinking hasn’t crossed my mind all that much really, I have tried to keep as busy as possible.

So after the hockey game, my roommates team wanted to go out for a drink. So I went with them, first we went to this one place that I remember going to one time when I was so hammered and had this bad memory came back to me… (long story) Luckily, the place was packed and there were no seats. So we went to another place… We sat down and everybody ordered beer or mixed drinks (it is a girls hockey team), there were a couple who orded cokes. I ordered an Ice tea, with no thought of ordering beer. After talking for about 15 minutes, I decided I wanted to play a few games of pool, so I asked my roommate to play, and she said yes. When we went to the bar to grab the pool balls, some drunk guy comes up to me and said;
“I saw you when you came in, and just wanted to say nice scarf (I was wearing my manchester united scarf), I’m a United fan too.”
Me: “Oh really? Yeah they are a great team.”
Guy: “Yeah I’ve been a fan for years, it’s just too bad they didn’t make the World cup this year…”
Me: “Yeah, too bad. Anyway I’m going to play some pool. See ya around.”

This conversation solidified my judgement not to drink. What was wrong with it you may ask? Well Manchester United is a CLUB football team. The World Cup is for INTERNATIONAL teams. United can’t even play to qualify for the world cup!  A sober person would never come up to a person and start running their mouth about how they like so-and-so when they know they don’t the slightest clue about it.

So after playing some pool, my roommate and I went home and chatted for awhile, then went to bed.

On Saturday night, my roommate and I had booked a hockey arena to play with a bunch of people. So we went to play at 11pm and it was a lot of fun!!! We are going to do it again soon.  After the game, a few of us went out to a 24 hour breakfast place and joked around with old stories. Got home around 2am.

Sunday, I sat on the couch all day watching movies with the roommate. We watched Terminator 2, Terminator 3… and Harry Potter: And the goblet of fire.”

So another weekend over with ( my toughest time)… come next weekend… 1 month sober!  And 1/2 way through the next week I will call my GF and ask her out… it will be almost 5 weeks. If that isn’t enough time for her to see I am serious about being sober… Well lets not think that far ahead.

Music of the Moment: Massive Attack – Essential Mix
Today I Feel:  Clean… if that makes sense.