Day 5

Today is Day 5, I feel good.

Last night I was lying in bed, with thoughts racing through my head of things I had to do. Things I could now do because I will no longer going to be a slave to this liquid.

I thought back to my first quit. I remembered how much clearer my head became after about a month. I remembered how much more motivated I became. I remembered waking up at normal times and being ready to go do things. I can’t wait to experience that again.

I hung out with my GF last night, she was upset because I wasn’t myself on Friday and she took it that I no longer wanted to be with her. Truth was that I was still hungover from that Wednesday binge. So I wasn’t my normal talkitive, full of energy self. I just wanted to curl up in a ball and die. Anyway, last night we hung out had a good time. As I left at around 11:30, I gave her a big hug and kiss and she said to me; “Let’s stay like this…”
I said “Stay like what?”
She said; “Like this, the way we are now. The way you are so good to me, the way you are happy around me, the way you make me laugh.”
“Opposed to what?” I said.
“The way you were on Friday when you were all ‘blah’. I don’t like that version.”
I told her; “I’ll try my best.”

As I walked to my car, I thought to myself. This is the way I want to stay. I don’t want to be that other me, the one who feels like crap all the time and slowly has the life sucked out until that next pint.

The real me is going to start to shine through again after a 5 year vacation. I’ve been drinking for about 10 years, but 5 years where it was taking control, where my real self was struggling to survive.

This is the beginning. Music of the Moment: Jon Tremblay – Essential Mix
Today I Feel: Fantastic!