Deep down

We won our soccer game tonight 3-2.  It was a very sloppy win, but i’ll take it.  In the end it is just another 3 points.  Krystal has emailed me the last 2 days.  I wrote her back with something short… I told her I missed talking with her.  She wrote back saying she feels the same.  When will she see?  Honestly.  I’m just a fool in love.  Missing out on other girls cause I can’t forget about this girl.  Once you feel it, it is so hard to let go.  I know she feels it too, it is in her head, it just hasn’t become conscience yet.  I feel one day it will hit her like a ton of bricks.  As of right now she says “we are just friends” which we are.  But deep down, I know if she just looks she will see, we are the ultimate friends.  I just can sense that connection between us, that look in her eye.  She knows it… but doesn’t.

Bah, I don’t want to write about this right now.  I have to work in the morning, and whenever I write like that before I goto bed, it plagues my mind for 8 hours while at work.

I have to move out.  I need a fulltime job.  The d-day is growing closer.  Big decisions are going to be made soon.

Music of the Moment:   Junkie XL – Live @ Dance Valley 2003
Today I Feel:  Emotional.