Her

So I am going to call Nicole on Wednesday.  We haven’t spoken in over a month now, she wanted to see if I was serious about quitting drinking before seeing me again.  I am on day 32 today, and I am more serious about not drinking than ever before.  I am just so afraid that when I call her she won’t want to talk to me.  I care so much for her.  The longer I am away from her the more I know I am in love with her.  It is kind of like that saying “You never know what you have until it is gone.”  Well I hope she isn’t gone, the last time she talked to me (in an email) she sounded like she would talk to me again and she really cared for me but she had to see that I was serious about not drinking anymore.  I am nervous just thinking about it.  God, she is beautiful.

Music of the Moment: Dj Krush – Decks-Athron
Today I Feel: Nervous