Me, a dad?!

So another month has passed and soon it will be yet another year. Time is moving so quickly, when I think about it that saying does hold true; “Life is short”.

Big things are happening in my life right now. It will soon all change. Debbie told me she is pregnant. I’m going to be a father. I AM GOING TO BE A FATHER. It still really hasn’t clicked with me yet. She told me before my previous entry, but I was still so shocked that I didn’t know what to write about, plus I was stressed about moving a third of the way across the country (The move went well by the way).

I think the biggest thing going through my mind is “fear”. I’m afraid of what is to come. I’m afraid I won’t be very good at raising another person. I’m afraid where I am going to find the money to support the family. I’m excited to be able to teach somebody baseball, soccer, hockey, to answer their questions, to have somebody look up to me as a role model. I’m excited for all that stuff. I’m just worried about finding a job, since I am unemployed at the moment after leaving my job behind on the island. I am educated and have experience in the IT field, so finding a new job won’t be an issue (knock on wood)… I just worry about these kinds of things.

I told my mom for Christmas and will tell my dad next week when I see him. My mom was in complete shock and after a few moments, she was excited and happy. I am pretty sure my dad will be very happy about the news.

My mom and I went to the world juniors game in Buffalo tonight, we saw Finland vs. USA. It was a good game, the US won in overtime. I was hoping Finland would pull an upset. Either way it was an entertaining game.

I purchased a teach yourself French course. So I have been working at that since I have a lot of free time now that I don’t have a job. I’ve always wanted to learn another language and French is prevalent in my field of work and a few of my friends speak it.  Not only that, but being bilingual is automatically like $15 000 more a year, that’s huge.  I’m motivated to learn and I am doing well so far.  As I progress I may start writing a little bit in french as well for practice.

Music of the Moment: Boards of Canada
Today I Feel:  Tired