No more!

I’m quitting again.  I feel like hell today, I missed work cause I was so hungover, I puked a couple times.  It is now 9:30pm and I still feel like total garbage.

I feel guilty.  I didn’t do anything stupid to embarass myself, or others.  I just don’t feel like a very good person.  How did I become this way?  I don’t want to be this way.  I want to be normal.  So no more.  I went 100 some days last year, I don’t know why I started again… it was dumb, thinking I could control it.

No more, this is day 1 again.

Music of the Moment: silence
Today I Feel: Horrible… ashamed, guilty, pathetic, stupid.