No regrets
Where does the time go? It seems that life just keeps accelerating. When I was little, it felt like it took forever for a year to pass by. I would think, “will it ever be August? Will I ever be 9 years old?!” Now it seems the years are going by faster and faster.
Debbie is upset because her life isn’t going as planned. Of course life won’t go as planned, you can’t plan something like this, life will always throw you a curveball. She is afraid that she will have regrets in life and her life is passing her by. I feel the exact opposite. I don’t regret anything in my life, I try it all if I have the chance. How would I know if I don’t try? I am accepting to the way things are going. Debbie weights to much on materialism and status. “Look how much money they make and how much I make” for example. The problem is she is comparing herself with others. She has to learn to enjoy what she does have and not what she doesn’t.
Debbie says if she doesn’t start making more money she will have to move back home. I don’t want her to leave. But at the same time I don’t understand how she can’t afford to live. Considering I am paying for the majority of rent and food, I even fill up gas on her car. So all she has to pay for is car insurance and chip in $350 rent cash….which is nothing. Given she isn’t making much at her job, but still… she should be able to get by on that. I don’t see what moving back home would do? You are going to go back and live with your parents and then what? Maybe I am just way to proud, determined, driven to do such a thing. By no way are we even close to poor. I just bought a $1600 TV in cash and still have plenty of wiggle room in the budget. Maybe she just sucks at money management? I dunno.
I am heading home for Christmas. Dec 17 – 27th. The whole trip is going to be a mission. I am going to be driving all over the place to go see my mom, my dad, and friends. It feels exhausting just thinking about it.
Living on the east coast is a big change. One thing I have noticed is so much revolves around Toronto… or at least that is the way TV seems to think. Take the weather network for example… headline today; “Ontario Storm headed to Atlantic Canada….” then the article goes on to talk about the storm in Toronto, nothing about what is anticpated for Atlantic Canada. I left Toronto because I hate it, I hate the spotlight and here I am still feeling like I am in it but from afar.
Music of the Moment: Ok Go – A Good idea at the time
Today I Feel: grumpy