Spring

I am over my cold now. Last night I had school, which went ok. My group is really relying on me for this project. Since I the leader, they seem to think I have all the answers. Oh well, I don’t mind, I actually like having the ability to delegate control.

School ended early, so I thought I would drop by Krystal’s place and see what she was up to. She was very happy to see me, and thanked me a number of times for coming over. She looked much better than how she did the last time I saw her… so I guess I was only kidding myself to say my attraction to her had died down. She looked so cute last night. We sat at around at her place and just chatted, and she told me how difficult she finds it to meet people who think similarily to her and how she feels she doesn’t truly open up to people very easily. I asked her if she feels comfortable telling me things, and she said I am one of the few people she has no problem talking to. That made me feel good. I then remembered I had those two poems I had written her in my jacket pocket, so I gave them to her. She liked them. 🙂 The one entitled “By my side” looked as if it almost generated a tear or two. I told her I am giving them to her because I wrote them for her, and I feel people should know how I feel, because you never know when your time could be up. I could be dead tomorrow and the people I care for would never know… so I thought I should tell her. I left Krystal’s place around 11:30pm, cause she had to do an assignment. Also, Krystal had also broken up with Andrew the day before.

I have been thinking of cutting things off with Nicole. Not that we ever were an item, but I just don’t want to see her anymore… I don’t have anything to say to her, and we have like nothing in common. I sense I am her excitement in her life… and I don’t want to be that. I want excitement, I don’t want to be somebody’s excitement.

It is starting to get warmer around here… you can feel spring is just around the corner. Boy this winter went by very quickly. I guess cause I kept myself busy and always had things to look forward to. Soccer, skiing, school… I have been a busy boy. 🙂

I feel really good about myself lately. I am happy in general, the only thing bothering me is this job situation. I need a full time job, but I won’t give up! I will get one!!! Once I have one, I will feel my life is more “stable” and established.

I also think I am going to stop talking to my older sister, she is such a downer on life. She has killed her relationship with Pauline and my mom… she has done a number on our relationship, and I have had enough. I won’t miss her. Once I get my own place, I really don’t think I will talk to her anymore. She is “take take take” and bitches when you don’t give her more. I can’t stand it. She is one of the few sources of stress in my life and I don’t need that shit.

Been watching the X-files like crazy still. It is such a great show!!! I am just beginning season 4 now, only 5 more to go after I finish Season 4… lol

Music of the Moment: Killabytes – Disc 1
Today I Feel:  Very well. 🙂