Tough one

I had a tough weekend… well not really… but there were some awkward moments for me.

I went to my dad’s place with my sister, her boyfriend and my girlfriend. About a month ago we had planned on going to an OHL (Ontario Hockey League) game to see the top prospect for this year play.

So we got to my dad’s place after driving through a snow storm for almost 2 hours. We sit down in the living room, my dad says from the kitchen “Who wants a beer?” My sister and her boyfriend both had one. My step-mom comes out from the kitchen with a beer poured in a glass and hands it to me. I promptly say, “No thanks” She says, “Are you sure?” and I said “Yeah I’m good, thank you though.” She then says “ok” and puts it on the table, and announces there is an extra one. At this moment I felt really awkward. Nobody knows I have quit drinking. I don’t really want to tell them, because I believe they will then have this pre-judgement about me that I must have had a drinking problem that I had to quit completely. Or they may worry that I will start drinking again. It will put extra pressure on me if I do drink again. People may feel it is partly there fault I started drinking again. So I just haven’t told anyone. For the most part I am alright, it is just moments like the above where I feel really weird.

The second situation was at dinner. Doug Gilmour was being honored by the Leafs that night. My dad for the occasion bought a bottle of Dougie’s wine and had it just for the occasion. He told me before dinner I had to give it a try. Before I quit, I would in an instant. I would drink anything if offered, but only would buy beer. Anyway, dinner came my dad said “Who wants a glass of this wine?” Lucky for me my sister declined. My girlfriend not being a big drinker, declined. I then jumped in and said “I’m ok thanks.” I felt bad, cause my dad was excited about this bottle and he had gone looking for this specific batch just for this occasion.

A couple times in my head I said to myself, “What’s one sip?” and had the typical AV argument in my head. I stood firm.

At the hockey game, my dad offered to buy me a beer. But I said I would rather have a root beer and popcorn. He was fine with that and picked that up for me instead. The game was excellent. Tavares scored a highlight reel goal. It was great. The rest of the weekend went well. Just thought I would share my experience.

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