Mmmm….mmmm good!

I decided I owed it to Morgan to go to dinner.  We met up about 2100.  It was an okay place.  The atmosphere was fun – but I didn’t drink enough to truly take advantage of it all.  I stayed until a little after 2300 and headed to Bailey’s.  He had finally called and told me to come by.

At Bailey’s we read through some of the interview books and discussed possible questions.  We watched a show.  We sparred for quite awhile….it mimicked teenage foreplay.  I poke and block and land a hit and you go.  It was so much fun.  We were both laughing and loving every touch.  Then we showered….there is almost nothing I love more than a shower with him.  Last night especially!  He lathered me and carassed and kissed.  I was on fire!  It was so sensual and gentle….so opposite of after the shower.  After the shower he started kissing and tracing my entire body with his tongue.  I couldn’t stand it anymore – I wanted to be fucked!  He fucked me hard, just the way I wanted it.  No mercy.  Fucked.  and.  Fucked.  I was in my heaven.  We both came together at the end and collapsed into a human interlocked puzzle.  We remained tangled for quite a while.  After a night so full of loving and animalistic fucking and sensual touching and laughter and love – I wonder how he feels about me.  I know what casual sex is like – I did that for a few years.  Last night was not casual sex.  I want to know so badly what he was feeling when I left at 0415 to go home.  Did he want to stop me and hold me in his arms all night?  Was he glad I went home?  Does he think that what we did last night is all he wants….will he find someone to make him happier?  I am not thinking "so I am good enough for sex but nothing else?" I don’t think like that.  I do wonder how he feels about me.  I think all the time lately – isn’t what we have together enough???? Even if you don’t love me in way that you love so much it hurts….do you need to?  Isn’t our love for one anothers company enough?  I seriously hope yes, but I don’t know if I will ever find out.

I have to work tonight….yuck!  I have to work 6 days this week…and then I am taking time off…to Mexico I go!