I’m In a Weird Pissy Mood

Hello Folks!

I’m in a weird kind of pissy mood today…partly because my period arrived. All day long it has been raining. Today as a bleak and dreary day. I did chat with my freind Heather from Montana and it did cheer me up a bit.

I have a great big backache and a headache. My backache is worse when I have my period and my headaches a little more on these Red Letter Days or when Mrs P arrives as I tell Alex.

On These days my mood turns sour and I see things

in a much darker shade. Even some thing as wonderful as

putting on a Story Hour for the kids seems like a scary challenge on these days.

Tomorrow I am hosting a big Story Hour with a winter theme. Me and this man, Rick Solaris will read books with a winter theme for the children of our town. We are also showing them a special movie and teaching them how to make paper snowflakes out of coffee filters and dazzling them with glitter.

After the Story Hour the kids will have cookies and soda.

I am making Danny some of my scrumptuous Creamy Fruit salad he loves. Tomorrow is his Birthday.

The child will turn 13 tomorrow.

I logged on aol today to chat with my Alex. I waited a good half an hour but I believe he was busy at that time.

I had to go for I was at work and the kids were coming in soon. GRRRRRRRRRRR! I almost started crying! 🙁

I hate it when I miss him.

I sound like a teenager sometimes…and I am a grown woman of 38 years! Gosh! I should be ashamed of myself.

I messaged him on my Motorola T900 Pager. I told him I missed him.

I can’t stop thinking of him! It is not disturbing my life in anyway…far from it…his thoughts make my life richer…but I am falling in love with him a little more each day!

When I got home I found a postcard from him with two little bears…a couple…lying down on a field with the British Flag behind them. The caption said, “If Wishes Came True I would be there by your side forever. That made my day.

He said that he will chat with me soon and signed it…”Your Alex”. How Sweet!!!!!

Sometimes I feel that nobody understands me!

I feel that no matter what I do it seems that people think I do things the wrong way. They simply shake their heads at me when I stubbornly just withdraw into myself.

It is so great to know that inspite of all of life’s uncomfortable situations and the constant set-backs and misunderstandings there is one special person who can always make you smile. It is comforting to know that in a

sea of strangers you are blessed with one life saving soul who understands you when other people close their hearts to you. I believe Alex is this special person sent to me to help me understand myself and to offer me an open heart when others have been shut.

I truly Thank God for sending me Alex.

He is my ray of sunshine in a day of thunder clouds.

I better go and make Danny’s Creamy Ambrosia Salad.

I shall return

Sensual Rose @}>->->->->->-