Weekend!

It’s the Weekend! Yay! It’s a short one, though 🙁

I am awake now…it is 7:42AM on a Saturday. My head aches from the fury I experienced yesterday. I can’t get over how superficial, vindictive and selfish Nina really is…and a few other people at work are for that matter!

I don’t know…I am a pretty genuine, warm-hearted individual with a heart of GOLD. I have a tough time hiding what I feel as I wear my emotions and love on my sleeves. I cannot pretend to feel what I don’t feel and all my emotions register on my face.

I just dislike dishonesty, greed, ungratefulness,black-mail, back-stabbing, conniving,vindictiveness,humane cruelty and lying…with a passion! I am sadden by people who practice any of these traits. 🙁

Why can’t people be more loving, trust-worthy, and genuine in their emotions and free in their giving without feeling stingy or self-righteous or resentful?

I give with an open heart without the anticipation of receiving. I am a cheerful and unselfish giver.

I am very grateful of anything that is given to me.

I am certainly not a greedy person….sometimes it is hard for me to receive as I feel that the person who gave to me is obliged to give me the gift…yet I do know that a person has to learn to receive with gratefulness and love and be receptive of the gift….sometimes people must learn to be humble and let others the joy of giving. 😀 My principle always is:

Giving is more rewarding than receiving..but what Nina is doing by presenting to Vader (My boss) in not allowing another birthday except the Boss’s, the Reference Lady, her puppet friend, Carmen and herself is wrong! She convinced my boss that we shouldn’t celebrate, make a collection for and buy a card, flowers or small gift for EVERY employee there.

A month ago my friend and co-worker’s father died.

Ivonne voiced out that we should collect money to buy some flowers for Annette. Vader told Ivonne that the library is not doing this sort of collection for anyone there now and refused the idea of collecting at least a dollar from every employee to purchase some flowers for a grieving employee.

Ivonne went on her own with my other co-worker, Danny (The maintainance man) and got her the flowers on their own part. Nobody at the Office even got poor Annette a Mask Card…not even the Boss. That was pretty cold-hearted and selfish!

Ever since I started working there 16 years ago, the management, along with the employees collected money for a small party for each employee. Some girls gave $1.00 and the Birthday gal was treated to Dunkin Donuts, coffee and a gift. It was such a nice gesture. During the years it got a bit more elaborate with cake, cookies, and my mother made her famous ham spread.

The most recent of parties Nina baked cakes and made vegetable dips..then she started feeling imposed on so she voiced out that we should STOP collecting money altogether for these parties. This was a bit selfish on her part…she didn’t have to bake a cake for every party and she wasn’t obliged to…but to suggest we stop collecting money for the Birthdays of the employees was, in my opinion, a low-down dirty idea….and she went and convinced the Director that we should STOP. He proposed we celebrate one birthday a year…we should take the names of all employees in a hat and pick one out of the blue and celebrate that person’s birthday at Christmas!

Can you believe the lame idea??? He is so rediculous!

But Nina is going all out for him. She voiced out 3 week’s ago that she was going to collect for his birthday. She got him a card and is planning to buy him a certificate for….a $50.00 grocery spree! How corny!

Ivonne said that on Wednesday (My Birthday) Nina and Carmen and Stella, the Reference Librarian, were talking in the Staff Room commenting on my birthday and laughing.

I was on vacation. They were talking behind my back!

Carmen went to Ivonne’s office and commented, “So today is Mary’s Birthday”. Ivonne was indignant and she said, “Oh, I didn’t know!” she then closed the door and continued working. She (Ivonne) had come earlier and presented me a gift from herself, Danny(the maintainance man at work) and her son, Alex. It was a lovely gift…a balloon, some nice flowers and a Memory Making Album.

So Nina shoved the card she got for Vader 6 times on my face so I could sign it and asked me for money for his gift. She didn’t ask how much I wanted to give but told me I had a choice of either giving $5.00 or $3.00. I shook my head in anger and said I could give neither! I was so angry! I told her point blankly that I could only give her $1.00. This time I have hardened my heart to her and her ass-kissing ways and put my foot down.

She was pissed off and asked me if I had no $3.00 to spare for ‘my’ boss! “Nope!” I point-blankedly said.

She went bad-mouthing me to her puppet in the Staff Room how cheap I was getting. I told Ivonne and she laughed and said I did a GOOD thing!

I am so upset 🙁

This is going to shorten my weekend. I just can’t get over it…I am a very sensitive girl. 🙁

I’ve been offended and hurt and I can’t help take things the hard way.

I am going to the Post Office today to post Alex’s present. ;D His Birthday is on Friday.

I hope my weekend is relaxing…I feel my chest tight and I have trouble breathing. I hope I a don’t have high blood pressure.

SensualRose @}>->->-