in my head, in my head, zombie, zombie

i was reading lily’s entry about how her aunt died or something by choking in a restuarant, and it just made me think a whole lot about everyone thats passed away in my life.

 Jael – Cancer – I could punch myself right in the face for never telling him how much i truley appreciated him. I cared for this kid so much, he was only 17, and i hadn’t known him too long, but i had the biggest crush on him forever <3 , He was probably one of the greatest people i have ever known. He was so genuinely kind and just an all around great person. I NEVER, yes, NEVER heard him say one bad thing about anyone. He always looked for the good in the situations, even if he didnt enjoy them. He had his moments of being an asshole, but everyone does, so you cant hold that against anyone. I miss him terribly ;x * Only the good Die Young *

 Tim – Cancer – Timmys dad. Although I didnt know him for too long, only about 2 years, I spent so much time with him through those 2 years, that it feels like a lifetime. I appreciate so much that i had the chance to get to know such a wonderful man. Although he did have his problems with drinking for a long time, there was hardly ever a time when he didnt appreciate everything that he had..his money, his family, his house, his friends, He never took anything for granted either. He worked for everything that he ever wanted his whole life, and I’m so glad that I got to meet him and for him to be able to make a difference in my life <3 * God only took you to prove that he takes the best *

 Monie – Cancer – My great-grandmother. I probably miss her more than i miss anyone in the world. She was like my best friend, although she was only around until i was about 9. Her funeral was probably about the hardest thing that i ever had to deal with, even though i was only 9. I spent almost everyday at her house, along with my mom. She kept my whole family together. I would go to her house 4 days out of the 7. We would have speghetti night at my g-moms house every thursday night, until she passed away. Everything stopped and my family started falling apart. She was an older lady, of course, so i couldn’t expect her to stay around forever, although I wish she would have. * Sometimes I think that I never would have known how to love if I wouldnt have met you *

 Jon – Drowned – I knew jon fairly well, I could have known him better, but i could have known him worse. he was great person. he always made me laugh and although he had his moments of being a jerk to random people, he always fixed that somehow. I dont think that he ever really wanted any enemies or anything because he was always there for the people that needed him, even if he wasnt friends with him. Him and his Girlfriend went swimming at blue marsh one day and no one really quite knows exactly what happened. He was “kidding around” with his girlfriend saying that he couldnt breath, and then he told her that he was just kidding, but she swam around he was gone ;x i never got to say goodbye.. * A song for a heart so big..God just couldn’t let it live *

 Sunshine – Dirtbike Accident – I didnt get a chance to know too much about this great person, but he was my moms very good friend for about 20 years..along with my dads. i only knew him for aboue 3 weeks, but those were the greatest 3 weeks of my life. He was great, when we would go camping, i would never get bored. he always had some wild/crazy idea or stunt to pull so that no one was bored or didnt have anything to do. He got killed in a dirtbike accident. He was riding a dirtbike, drunk, of course, up on the mountain and made a wrong turn..he then fell off the side of the mountain, and onto the railroad tracks, where his head splattered ;x * Sometimes all you can do wipe your tears, smile, walk away, but keep them in your hearts *