theres nothing left but this *

//.Right.Now.

//[Time] 12:58 pm

//[Wearing] black pants, blue shirt

//[Drinking] water

//[Listening To] Lost prophets – last train home

//[Eating] nothing

//[Feeling] tired, bored, skanky

//[Wanting] to smoke a cig and go and do something

//[Talking To] no one

i havent written in a long time, lol, i just havent felt like it. theres been so much shit going on lately and i just been trying not to think about it and shit, so i think thats why i havent wrote or felt the need to write.

family – well, my mom and dad had a court meeting because of my dad not paying enough child support or something, but he never showed up because he lost the paper or something? so yeah, my dad called and said that now he was getting arrested, but my mom said that she doesnt know why hes even worried about it because it wouldnt happen. so now, instead of my dad paying 500 dollars a year, now he has to pay like 2000 something ;x my mom didnt tell him yet because i told her that i was afraid that he would be mad, but he wouldnt be at me, just at her. i dont know yet.

timmy – hes just a jackass. the other night, kara was talking to me online and asked me how timmy was lately, i told her that he was okay, but hes been really snappy and always tired/drained out and never feels like doing anything. So then she says that she thinks hes abusing drugs again, and i was like, well, i kinda thought that, but on the weekends i spend all my time with him and i never saw him do drugs around me lately..well, she was right. i guess last friday, when mike was over with me, timmy and tiff, timmy snorted something and mike said something to kara about it because he didnt know what it was and timmy i guess said that he didnt know what it was either. so i called timmy and shit and asked him about it and he said that mike was lying about it? well, mike doesnt fucking lie. mike doesnt know how to lie. so then timmy came and got me and in the car, i told him that i knew he was lying..and he told me that he was. here, hes been doing coke, smoking pot & other random pills, oxy’s & i think xtc. well, needless to say, i was flipping the fuck out. but whatever, so we went to karas and we all talked and yeah, pretty much thats it. im trying not to think about it because i dont wanna deal with it. pretty much, if he can do drugs, so can i, so fuck him.

friends – well, davy and jess arent going out anymore, thank god, but now davey likes amanda, and i am so happy. she deserves so much to be happy. shes been so depressed for so long now, and finally, heres someone that likes her for hwo she is. she can be herself around him, and hes not with her to just fuck and get head and shit because they been hanging out for like 2 weeks now and shit. but now, jess is all pissed at amanda because she said that everything between them was going really good and now all of a sudden, its really bad, and i was just like wtf? davy doesnt even like jess. he called her last sunday and told her that its over and she should just fuck off, but she doesnt get the fucking point and stil always come to his house and just wont leave him the fuck alone. i fucking hate people like that ;x

random – i took a pregnency test, and it came out negative ;D woot. haha, i am so happy. no one has any idea!! hehe  ~~~~ my party is on friday, im kinda glad that i know about it but kinda wish i didnt, i dont know, i dont even care if no one shows up, as long as i have my family and a few of my friends and shit, i’ll be happy (: heh, ~~~ i dont know what else there was that i wanted to write. ;/ oh yeah, haha, i skipped school with my neighbor, haha, my mom knew about it, but his didnt, so the school called his mom and his mom called his cell phone & he didnt answer, then she called my cell phone & i didnt answer because we ran to wal-mart and we werent supposed to, haha. so then she called my mom and my mom told her that we went to wal-mart, ahh. so fuckin stupid ;/ haha, but oh well. so his mom called and flipped out but he acted like he was really upset about certain random things and so i think that everythings going to be okay. ~~~~ i j

oined curves with my neighbor & her daughter and my mom and i went monday & tuesday but i dont know if im going to go today. im only supposed to go 3 days a week and i think my mom wants to go thursday because my g-parents are here and shit right now. i dont know though. my mom and my g-mom said that i look like i lost weight already? i doubt it, haha, but that would be great (: