this is the soundtrack for our movie

I’m back with Evan ;D and I’m so happy about it. Things are great, we fight but its not like it used to be. I dont know what make things different, maybe the break that we had, but I’m happy and hes happy and its just great. We talk a lot more and we just tell each other a lot more than we used to, and things are starting to come together, so thats great. I was at my house yesterday while the Superbowl was on & he was at his house and Dana called, wanting him to come to her house. I didnt care because it was only Dana and I love her, but she said that Amanda was going to be there, so I was really pissed..especially because he told me all week that he was going to come to my house for the superbowl. So I was extremely upset and I cried for a little and was so pissed..and he called me and was like “Listen, I know you’re pissed but you’ll get over it and I just wanted to tell you that I love you and call me later” and I was like okay bye and I hung up and started crying. He called me back a little later and I figured that he’d be at Danas and shit, but he wasnt ;D he was at his house and he said that the reason why he didnt go was because he didnt want be to me upset. We talked for a long time last night on the phone then and he called me this morning before school and we talked for awhile & I just love him so much.

Valentines Day is coming up and I’m not really sure what I’m going to get Evan yet. Since its a Monday, I probably won’t be seeing him..so we’re going to celebrate the weekend after, instead of the weekend before. I think I’m going to bake him this yummy strawberry pudding cake and write ‘I love you’ on it & I’m going to get him a card, of course, and I’ll prolly get him some shit that he needs instead of stupid shit..like wifebeaters, socks, baby powder, shit like that. I dont know what hes going to get me yet..but probbaly nothing special because he doesnt have money, haha. Oh well, I dont really care..I just want him to be happy because I love him so much.

Rachel and I arent on speaking terms right now. Well, I shouldnt say that. I should say that we’re pretty fucking pissed at each other and I dont know how long its going to last or even if its gonna surpass. It might just be the end of our friendship, but not by my choice. Last week, Wednesday I think it was, She was talking shit on Evan and I stuck up for him because hes my boyfriend & I’m not going to listen to her talk shit on him. It wasnt anything big, just that she doesnt like him and that she doesnt want him with me because he hurts me and blah blah and I explained to her that she was hurting me by saying that it and it was fucked up and she should be happy for me because I was so miserable without him, being depressed & crying all the time and stuff..but whatever. So when we left History, we were just both pissed and we didnt talk about it or anything and things just got worse as the days passed.

So to make a long story short, today in history we had a screaming match and shes just being really unreasonable about the whole situation. I tried to talk to her about it..I wrote her a letter and gave it to her, I called her, and with the letter, I know she read it, but she never wrote back & when I called, she just hung up on me, so I dont know what to do about it. Everytime I try to talk to her, she just gets an attitude and gets all pissed so its almost pointless to even try to talk to her about it. Shes my best friend and it supposed to be there for me whenever I need her, but yet Evans the bad guy because he IS there for me when I need him and blah blah. Part of the reason why she said all that shit about Evan was being shes having problems with Adam and I know it. I want to try to work things out, but shes not letting me. Adam told her that she shouldnt worry about being friends with Me or Breanne because we’re not going to be there for her in awhile anyways, so whatever. I’m pissed. argh. !%^$#%@$

Jess is pregnant..and Rachel & I were going to take her to New Jersey for an abortion because she cant let her parents find out, but shes not doing anything about the situation. Shes not calling the place to get an appointment, shes not even talking to Chris about the whole thing, even though his mom said that she would pay for it because neither of them have the money. She says that theres no way in hell shes going to have a kid, but I think shes going to. Shes waiting way too long to do anything about it, Shes already about 10-11 weeks pregnant, and she thinks shes only 8..but my mom says that shes postive that shes 10-11 weeks. I dont know. I feel bad but its not really my problem. I mean I’m here for her and she knows it, but theres nothing that I can do about it if shes not doing anything about it. In a way, and I know this sounds really bad, I hope that she does have a kid because I think it would be such a cute kid and it would be fun to play with and I dont know why..but I just do. But in other ways, I know that netiher Jess or Chris are ready to take care of a kid..mentally and physcially and finacially, so I dont know.

Breanne got a job at the movie theater, so she gets to go see free movies whenever she wants and she gets free popcorn and sodas and shit, so I’m pumped, haha. Tonight, we’re supposed to be going to see some movie, I dont know which one, because she gets to take a friend for free too..and then tomororw we’re supposed to be going again with Ally to see another movie, haha. Its gonna be movie madness..okay, i Just talked to Breanne and we’re going to see The Wedding Date at like 5:20 ;D I’m pretty pumped. I never even heard of the movie, but I heard that its supposed to be really good. so we’ll see. well im outtie for now..later kids<3