I Deserve to be Happy

I deserve to be happy. I hear it all the time from friends. I think I’m making progress from past events too.

Last weekend I had a blast playing competive volleyball finally. I met knew people and it felt good. I rode my first mechanical bull and attempted to spin around on a pole. haha. Good times and memories. I miss those days were I Just let loose a little with still being careful. It made me feel good. Maybe I can do it again sometime agian. Who knows.

My sisters finally off her 2x a day shots for her blood clot. She’s taking some herbal thing now. Hopefully she can play sports soon. She’s going nuts but now she’s losing hair. Last night all she did was cry. I feel bad for her.

One of the guys from my grade school died from a heart attack Sunday at only 28. My first crush too. It’s really weird.

Work is stressful too. Putting up with teens who are always disrespectful just wears on you.

Last night I saw a 12yr old get a lighter form a 20 some yr old. I’m sorry but that’s just bullshit. They wonder why teens are trouble makers these days. They watch us and are influenced by what we do now… hello people be role models…. it’s sad to see this world becoming so damn shitty cuz people can screw their heads on straight. It’s just stupid..