tomorrow! with edit

well, we have our first OB appt. tomorrow!  we’re both nervous but hoping for the best. 

i hope i can sit in the waiting room without freaking out.  well, not freaking out…i should say panicking.  i never freak out outwardly. i panic when i’m nervous and i’m obviously not on any of my medications anymore, so i get very anxious. although i have been surprisingly less anxious than i thought i would be.  i’m sort of peaceful a lot of the time. i’m doing better in public situations than i thought i would. but it’s not me that’s so important anymore. it’s the baby, so i don’t worry so much about me now or how i’m being perceived or about what’s going on around me.  i’m tuned into baby.  it’s hard to be tuned into anything else.

anyway, excited about tomorrow. keep us in your good, happy thoughts.

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edit:

i’m so excited!

i ordered the entire Chronicles of Narnia for baby online today for $18.something!!  for those of you who don’t know, it is a series of books, with the first book being The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe.  i loved those books when i was younger. i told d we had to read the whole thing to baby when s/he can understand.  i also ordered a pregnancy yoga book that comes with a dvd.  the book is a fully illustrated hardcover with colour pictures and all kinds of info.  the dvd is obviously a yoga workout.  those i am getting for $11.something!  the last book i ordered is a novel called The Red Tent by Anita Diamant. a girl who i read on my other diary was talking about it so i became interested in reading it as well.  it is $17.something!  it’ll take a while for my books to come, though, b/c they all have to be shipped together for me to get free shipping and the yoga one takes 5-8 weeks.  i’m hoping it doesn’t though. 

what kind of freak gets so excited about ordering books?  🙂

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