CD event
I woke up this morning feeling anxious. Every time I get this feeling, I stay highly motivated when it’s about work or an important deadline coming across the day. As I arrive to this event destination, I bumped into the school’s Social Services Case Manager and the school psychologist and decided to sit right next to them. I then saw my school’s vice principal walked in the room. Unfortunately, it was a quick “Hello!” and she continued to pass by me trying to find somewhere else to sit… To me, it felt like an ounce of rejection, and I played it along in a neutral mood. The CD event we both attended today sort of rationalized my decision to invest my time in fostering relationships with those outside of my school site. When we do come to terms for us to talk, it will mostly be about our students and work. I did not let that kind of unexpected behavior from making me feel blue. It might’ve not been her intentions but either way I did not follow it and kept my emotions inside.
In the CD event I just attended, I made connections to topics in executive, emotional, and survival approaches that I may use with my students next year.
To be continued….
As I mentioned, I have the textbook that covers in today’s Conscious Discipline training. Yes, I am looking forward to changes. My reflections reveal that addressing this through was essential to me as a special education teacher so that I could help my students navigate challenges and build resilience as they are often incapable of communicating effectively with adults. The idea that they are too frustrated to follow through with the expectations of the classroom should occur to me, not to others. If that makes sense? I try to think about my daughter and find the right educational tools to educate her well. When I entrust too much access to my child, I fail as a parent. If for instance, parents set limits and correct their child’s behavior, teachers won’t have to deal with any behavior problems. As a teacher, I do tend to feel like the way students are behave, regardless falls on me. Teachers are there to moderate any behavior, true, but I feel like their job is undone if my child goes home and does whatever she pleases without discipline.
Today’s meeting was more like a teaching lesson.
Besides what I wrapped up though, I came with a conclusion to stop being so fixated with my boss. I’m glad that I went out to eat with two people who were in the same table and had fun. I do think my boss did a great job avoiding me for the most part. I just modelled her behavior and didn’t let her see my signs of weaknesses. I must admit, it does hurt a little, however, it means that it’s really time for me to step out or allow space until we meet again at work. I hope I’m mistaken. That’s why I try not take it too personal.