It’s meant to be…

I let go of the person I ever loved. The person that was my perfect match. She won’t ever know what she means the world to me. I don’t think she ever saw me the same way I do but I know there was a zero chance. Never told her my like for her because it is rare to bump into people like her. She is unique in every way that I could possibly picture her to any one. Work is tough to say you will find peace and love when things go out of hand.

We had problems before. But by far, today is really the end. I said a lot, maybe went carried away with words. I’m hurt tonight. It’s meant to be. I can’t give the bad impression of my ability to work as a teacher. To be direct and say, “I’m in love with you,” is something that I’m not ready to name yet. Today, I lost hope. My vice principal may be hurt. It was not my bad intention. I wanted to be heard and appreciated for investing the time to touch her heart. Did I took it personally? Yes. So many tears because I disappointed her, said things that upset me and the fact how she said that students are moving to another classr0om, parent complaint, no report about a student’s injury, and I can go beyond… It doesn’t hurt me much about the work problems. It’s more about how she sees me, the person I learn to fall in love but just can’t name it. It’s too late to take everything back. Yes.. I’m in love and I will remove myself if things continue to fall on me. I can’t handle being ignored. I wish she knew. I’m not making sense anymore. She will never know. No more Good night, no more back-forth messages. And, I thing it’s meant to be. My silence and my broken heart…