Busier/Dream

Weird… I cant change the font or font size. Is it becoz my computer settings at work is different?

Anyway… work is getting busier now. And I need to come in this Sat becoz there’s some last min thing. Some campaign which popped out suddenly due to the dengue outbreak. Of late, there r some changes in the office too. Now, we will need to come in on a Sunday as well. But this will be rotated among the four of us so effectively we will only be coming in once every 4 weeks. But still… I dont like it. Haha. We r also expected to man the counter once a week to help out the officers. Basically I dont mind cust service. Afterall, I have done it b4. But I dont like doing it when I dont have the knowledge to use the computer system… Yeah, I can learn but it seems complicated and on normal working days, I hv to do my work at my work station which means, I cant go out to the counter and learn how to use the system.

Sometime ago, I had this weird dream. Really really weird dream. In it, I actually had an affair with one of my committee chairman!!! He’s married in reality and in the dream too. But somehow, we were involved. Ah. Cldnt understand how this dream came abt. I like this chairman (in reality) becoz he is a nice person. But I cldnt believe how I cld hv this kinda dreams, haha. The only thing in common he has with J is both of them have the same skin tone…. Well, anyway, after that dream, I seem to feel weird whenever I am with that chairman. The after-effects of the dream I guess.

Few days back, I suddenly realised that J and I have been together for 4 years and 9 months. Wow, comes Dec and it will be our 5th year. Seems unbelievable… Though I have always dream of having an everlasting love, but I still find it amazing…. that I am actually able of loving a man for so long. Though there were times when we felt frustrated or unhappy, there would still be times when I looked at him and this tenderness just set in.

I am happy to be in love with him. I know I do take him for granted at times, and I feel guilty abt it. I hope I will improve in this aspect.

Thursday, 2216 hrs.