Dream

Not very sure of what’s happening in OD nowadays. Though I’m quite free now becoz I’m no longer temping, I havent been logging on to update myself. On and off I do read my favourites, but I dont necessarily leave notes. I dont even know how to do my diary maintanence so I shall leave it for the moment. But… where’s the editing tools which I normally see in the "Write an entry" page?

Anyway….

Had this very sweet dream this morning. In it, I was pregnant! (gosh..) The tummy was showing and it felt so real. I felt as if I could really feel a life inside me. I saw my family and relative and they were all taking great care of me. I saw J too. The smile on his face. A proud father. Somehow, I dont feel we were married in the dream. Haha. In the dream, I could feel that being pregnant wasnt that easy… a bit xing ku but very xing fu. =)

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J’s been very busy with his work lately. He has been working till 10+ pm, sometimes even up till 11+ pm. I dont like to see him OT till so late hrs. More than 12 hrs of work per day. Must be very tiring for him. I dont know how long this will last. Sigh.

We used to meet up on wkdays but now we dont becoz of his OT. I dont mind it and it actually surprised me becoz I thought I would be unhappy and not used to it at all. However, I actually realised that I adjusted quite well to that. Probably becoz I had worked for the past few months so when I ended work, I was kinda tired as well so dont really feel like going out. There were times when he ended work at 8 or 8+ pm and he would then call me to ask me out. And we then met for dinner. I’m confused as to whether I like that arrangement. On the one hand, I’d like very much to see him while on the other hand, I dont really like going out at such hrs for a short time and then returning home.

But I guess not being able to meet up on wkdays make me appreciate his presence more on Sat. Haha. Now I feel that time passed very quickly on Sat becoz that’s the only day I get to see him.  

I still sms him in the morning before 8 am to say good morning to him though I no longer need to wake up early. It’s a habit which started since I started on the temp job. I would sms from my bed then I go back to sleep.

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Getting fatter. Think I have put on weight. Again. My weight only goes up, not down. Sigh. My BMI is over the ideal category now. Where is my determination to exercise?? It didnt help that I havent been playing badminton since the Chinese New Year. And not going jogging with J. And we have been eating and eating everytime we meet.

Bored. Dunno what I shd do tomorrow….

Wednesday, 0138 hrs.