Genting Highlands/ Relationship

2 days of public holidays came and went. So did my break. Now I don’t feel like going back to work tomorrow. Sometimes I wish I can be a tai-tai, haha. Then I don’t hv to work. Can just relax and do whatever I want to. Shop, take up classes, volunteer, etc. Ok, I don’t hv to be a tai-tai. I think a housewife will do..

Had a nice time with J at Genting Highlands from Tue to Thu. The place was crowded, prob due to the public holidays. We caught the Zorro movie while there and went to this “Ripley’s Believe It or Not!” exhibition. It was an interesting exhibition, displaying many weird and funny things. Had coffee and cakes at the Coffee Bean and Starbucks there but somehow we felt that the coffee wasn’t as gd there. But we had this choco fudge cake at Coffee Bean which was simply delicious (Checked out the outlet at East Coast on Sat but cldnt find it… how sad).

Cldnt remember how time flew by when we were there. But I was really tired when it came to the 2nd night. Must be becoz we kept walking ard in the day and of coz, sleeping late at night. Went to the casino but didn’t play at all coz I felt most of the time, ppl seem to be losing, haha. Cldnt stand the 2nd hand smoke there too.

Experienced some unhappiness on the bus journey back. During the stop to have dinner at this canteen along the expressway, I cldnt decide what to eat. I wasn’t exactly hungry but felt we shd at least eat something in case there was a jam at the checkpt. But I don’t hv any appetite at all. I don’t know, the food there doesn’t look appetizing at all. In the midst of deciding what to eat/ shd we eat/ what to get, J got angry. When we finally bought a plate of mee rebus to share, I asked him to eat 1st but he insisted that I ate 1st. He was wearing this extremely pissed off look on his face and he looked so fierce. I didn’t want to say anything, so I ate 1st and then passed to him. Back on the bus, I became emotional. The more I thought of it, the more upset I became. I knew I can be quite troublesome when it came to eating but I cldnt accept that as the reason for him losing his temper (almost). I teared. After a while, he reached out for my hand but as I was still upset, I cldnt bring myself to hold his hand. But somehow, we managed to make up after that.

He did mention b4 that he’s no longer that patient with me which I agree. Sometimes I feel he gets frustrated more easily now. Has it something to do with the longer u r with a person, the easier u’ll tend to take things for granted and hence the less patience u’ll hv?

Nowadays, when we go out on Sats, he’ll always ask me where to go/what to do etc. The more he asks, the more frustrated I get. Sat is the only day we truly get to spend time with each other and I don’t want it to become something like a burden where we hv to constantly plan of things to do or to spend our time wisely. Though I agree that sometimes it can get boring when u r outside in the city and u just simply hv no ideas of what to do at all. U just eat, talk and walk ard. After that, it’s eat again or head for some coffee.

On top of Sat, we also meet up for dinner on a wkday evening. The amt of time we hv together now is definitely lesser than when we r studying. On certain Sats, I hv some work function to attend and so can only meet for a few hrs. Hence, in a way, I do expect him to be more appreciative of the times we hv together. But somehow, at times I don’t feel he is.

Sometimes on Sat afternoons, esp after meals, he’ll get drowsy and feel like sleeping, or simply feel less energetic. Then I’ll feel a little sian becoz when his energy level dips, he seems to hv no interest in anything. Talking abt being tired and sleepy, I always remind him to go to bed early but somehow he still gets only 5 or 6 hrs of sleep or less during wkdays. I think when u care for a person, u’ll tend to ask him to take care of himself, ask him to do this/ not to do this etc.. then if he doesn’t listen after so many repeated times, perhaps u’ll get a bit less keen towards that. And maybe after a long time, u’ll just cldnt be bother anymore?

Of coz, things get different when u hv been together for so long. But sometimes I still wish that things wont remain stagnant and we’ll learn to be more appreciative, even the simple things. I still try to think of doing things which I know will make him happy. Bought him a Timex watch recently after he commented he wanted to get a digital watch so that he cld go running. Loved the surprised look and smile on his face. =)

Sometimes I wish we can get married earlier. I just feel like living a life together with him and experiencing everything with him. To take care of him or maybe him taking care of me since he says he feels I’m someone who needs somebody to take care of me.

But sometimes, when we hv other own ideas and cldnt see eye to eye on certain things, he wld say it’s not that easy (to live together) after all. I definitely don’t agree with his thinking that marriage is for the purpose of having babies. I think marriage is more than that. Which is why I always tell him that I am only prepared to hv a baby at least one or two yrs after getting married. Becoz to me, I think I’ll need the one or two yrs to get adjusted to each other’s habits and things like that. And of coz, to enjoy the 2 ppl world.

Ok, stopping here.

P.S. Still don’t feel like going back to work tomorrow. Will be working afternoon shift from Tue to Fri this week. Got a meeting on Mon night which means I’ll be working from morning till night. Ah.  

Sunday, 1959 hrs.

 

 

 

uo;m someone who needs somebody to take care of me.

 

 

But sometimes, when we hv other own ideas and cldnt see eye to eye on certain things, he wld say it’s not that easy (to live together) after all. I definitely don’t agree with his thinking that marriage is for the purpose of having babies. I think marriage is more than that. Which is why I always tell him that I am only prepared to hv a baby at least one or two yrs after getting married. Becoz to me, I think I’ll need the one or two yrs to get adjusted to each other’s habits and things like that. And of coz, to enjoy the 2 ppl world.

 

 

Ok, stopping here.

 

 

P.S. Still don’t feel like going back to work tomorrow. Will be working afternoon shift from Tue to Fri this week. Got a meeting on Mon night which means I’ll be working from morning till night. Ah.  

 

 

Sunday, 1959 hrs.