Ostrich Logic

Think my entries are more on a monthly basis nowadays.

Havent really start on my new job search. I’m too tired to read the papers or search the net on wkdays. Wkends r normally spent at my new house. Guess I’ll have to start somehow. Maybe tomorrow…

Am on a long wkend. Took one day leave on Mon so I’ll only go back to work next Wed. YAY!! So happy that I can take a break. Not that I have a lot to do at work. In fact, I can be quite free. But I just like it that I can do anything I want… But then, I seem to have a feeling that the days will juz zoom pass and it will be Wed very soon.

Am starting to feel a little excited abt my wedding

It will be another 3 months to my tea ceremony, 5 months to my banquet. Shd start on plan to do up my house actually, since we will be moving in after the tea ceremony… But right now, dont think we can buy any additional furniture. Am still trying to save for the banquet.

I have not been giving my parents money since Aug (after I started on my new job) as I’m trying to save up for my banquet. It’s not that I’m not giving but I need the money to zhou1 zhuan3 coz we need to pay for our deposits for the banquet, bridal shop etc. I have intention to resume once we are in a better shape financially and I do have plans to go them all that I currently owed.

I know my dad is not happy that I have not been giving him money. I remembered when I told him initially, he was not receptive to it at all, saying that I shdnt be saving to pay for the banquet at all as this shd be taken care of by the groom. Sigh. Told him that in this age and generation, the wedding couples normally pay for the cost but he still retains his traditional thinking.

Few days ago, he asked me when am I going to resume my monthly contributions. I told him a few more months. Then he went on to say that it was not fair for my bro and sis if I did not give every mth. He added that he wont spend the money, he wld save it up and return it back to me in future. I know what he said is true, becoz so far, he has really been saving our mthly contributions in the bank account. But I still feel upset when he asked me for the money. My view is that if he is in no lack of money, then I dont understand why he is asking me for it esp when he knows that I have to save up now.

J’s parents will be coming over on Sunday to talk abt the terms with my parents.

Have plans to stay over at my new house this wkend. I know my parents wont approve of it, but I plan to tell them that I am going to a chalet. Hah. J told me to tell the truth and never mind if they said no. To some extend, I know that they can do nothing if I insist and dont come home. But there is a part of me which says I dont want to make things bad.

The ironic part is, I had stayed over at my new plc b4. That was a few wnend ago when my parents went to Msia. And they knew that I had stayed over in my new house. Before they left, my mum kept asking if I wld be at home and asked if they need to stop the newspaper delivery for the wkend. My dad did stop the delivery in the end. So they had expected me to stay over. But now that they r back in Sg, they dont allow me to stay over anymore.

My sis has a logic on this. She said that for my parents, as long as they did not see it with their eyes, they will pretend that nothing has happened. Ostrich. Goodness.

Sigh. Going to bed…

Oh, not much progress with losing weight. I’m going to be a plump bride. Haha…

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