Another Year…. Nothing Has Changed

Well Happy New Year…. so far, I’ve dececided this year will be a year of cleansing… total cleaning of everything that is associated with me… Friends ( which i don’t have any) home( closets, cabinets, etc) finances ( cleaning up my mess of my credit, and figuring out how I will make it out of serious debt)… Just a total cleaning of everything including the way I think…

I’m supposed to go see a psychiatrist Wednesday…evidently, I’m experiencing high anxiety…and they think I need medication… That I’m not sure I need to do… I’m totally afraid of being on mental medication… I don’t want to be on it forever….but when I think about how I feel when the anxiety is running ramped, its rough so I don’t think I would mind the meds, I guess I just don’t want to be on it forever?

It makes me nervous because I’m trying to think have I always had anxiety problems, and just didn’t know what it was? I wonder if there are some ways to reduce anxiety…. sometimes I don’t even realize that it is happening until its too late and my blood pressure has reached a dangerous high…

is there anything I can do to stop this without Med’s? What should I be asking the psychiatrist when I get to the appointment?