Stressed :/

Today has been one of the days, just stressful. Hard to see the “colors” of life on a day like today even though Spring is coming. I didn’t even go for a walk on my lunch break, even tho Zo Zo came to visit. I was so tired for some reason, even though I slept well last night.

I’m also stressed because I just spend a lot of money. I paid $1200 for an airBnb and 700 for a plane ticket to work from away. I’m so torn on this. Like I need to save from Grad school, but at the same time I need to live my life. The way I see it, at least it’s like a working vacation I guess. I’m almost at my savings goal of $10,000 and if I had taken this $2,000, I would be there. I think I may have to work in the US into the summer months for a while before leaving again, which is stressful in an of itself just to meet my savings goal. Or win on a scratch ticket lol. I think maybe I have been buying too many lately and losing:(

I’m also stressed bc right now I should be logging on to help work, but at the same time, no, because I did my 8 hours, and I’m tired. Random thought, isn’t it funny how writing does make you feel better? I’m so curious for the psychological reason for this, like getting ur thoughts out?

I also didn’t go to the gym today and ate too many carbs, blah. For some reason every April 5th is like “DI day” to me. It used to be the date of our Maine state finals. lol