I want to talk to her, she’s hot as hell.

I saw my mother today. She brought my my day planner I got for Christmas.
I don’t think anyone under the age of 30 uses a day planner.
Or even has a need for one, but she means well.
I really am starting to think that maybe they are breaking up.
Her and her boyfriend, she seems really.. paranoid about it.
She’s worried about me, though.. not my brother.
So it makes me feel kind of bad.
(Is it bad I can’t tell the difference between Octomom and Angelina Jolie sometimes?)

I want to meet her.
Apparently, she’s pretty hot.
I can’t even see how she’d be comparable to me, though.
Really.

I really want to write.
Would it be bad if I told the career lady I changed my mind?
I just can see her flipping a bitch over it, that’s all.
I am going to college, regardless.
Which, she doesn’t seem to understand.
I don’t think she thinks I have the mental capability of going to college.
Despite that I owned the tests she made me take.. to see if I was smart enough.
Which is kind of ironic, I think.
 I really do want to meet her.
Seriously.
She can’t be that great.

I got this thing today..
so I can use the bus half-price.
Which is freaking sweet. That means I can get a month pass.
Which is just.. awesome. I can’t wait.
That means, I will NEVER be here.
No more Aritz. Which freaking rules.
on so many levels.
"You cannot rebound from the person you were rebounding with from."
I am just pissing everyone off, lately.
I am super disconcerted.

It’s awful. Really. I was suppose to call this guy today..
but I didn’t. I just slept all day.
Which was nice.
I just want to curl up and die.
..and to think I was doing well.
I really wasn’t.
I am more upset that I am not well.. than the actual
upsettment. Which makes no sense.
but it’s okay, I don’t need to explain myself to myself in my diary.
I want some ice cream.

I’m creepy.
I really want to see what she looks like.
She’s probably, most likely, smarter than I am..
so I’ve got to at least be prettier, right?
Haha.

Anyway.
Much love OD-ers.
Suraque.
(Monster- Lady Gaga http://www.youtube.com/watch)