It’s the good life, better than the life I live.

So.
I’m falling apart.
I think it is a summer time thing..
some people get depressed in the winter..
maybe I am just weird and all of the excess vitamin D drives me nuts?

I don’t know.

I’m pretty much done on wanting a normal life.
I’m at a point in my life.. where I’m like.. just waiting to die, I suppose.
Pretty nerve racking when I actually say it, but it’s been on my mind for a while.

I don’t think I can ever be happy..
not in the way an average person is happy, at least..
and that’s what would MAKE me happy..
is being able to have a stable life such as you neurotypicals.

Anyway.
I have a feeling that may is going to be a diary month, so I’ll probably be posting a daily one, or at least trying to get one daily.
I really haven’t been doing anything.. since I’ve been super depressed.

-LoveSuraque
(http://www.youtube.com/watch, Good Life-Kanye West)