She’s pumping through my veins.

Is it bad to have conversation with your best friend’s ex?
I mean, I am not so good with social right and wrong, so I see nothing wrong with it..
but it may be against some ‘code’ or something.
I mean, it’s not like we were talking about "HEY BBY LET’S FUCK." it was just like..
"Hey, how are you?" "Hear this new band lately?" "Yeah, they’re good."

so, casual conversation.. but anyway..
it still is probably socially unacceptable, right?
I don’t feel bad about it though, but if she freaks out I won’t talk to him anymore.
Since she is way more important to me than he is/will ever be.
So, I guess my actions are close to being close to society’s social standard. Closer than normal at least.

Anyway.
Back to MY love, instead of hers.
I am still major fangirl over him, seriously.
I don’t, honestly, think I will get over it.
It will, die down.. but never be GONE.
You know what I am saying?

I think everyone has a love like that, whether they admit it or not.
Someone who just.. sets the passion standard.
Like, you want this person so much.. that everyone else.. well, sucks.
..and you know from then on that everyone else will be settling.

At least, I think most people who ‘love’ feel like that, at  one time or another.
Well, I guess they would just FEEL like that, because I don’t believe it was really ‘love’ if they stopped that feeling.

Love is so loosely used.
I hate it.
Hence why I have trouble saying/writing about it.
Which explains the quotations.

anyway.
Here’s a question for you. (if anyone actually reads this, which no one does.. so I am just writing this to myself for future reference)

Have you ever been SO in ‘love’ that it just completely overwhelms you?

-suraque
(True To Me- Metro Station)