Stand up and demand some answers.

03/09
"All you get from this moment is what you gave to your past."
Has really got me to think. I HAVE given a lot, just to all the wrong people.
I really think I should start focusing the people who love me and will maybe love me someday..
rather then hopinh that they will change their mind, you know?
I don’t know.
But don’t people always say "You want what you cannot have."?
I really think that is all this is.
I want him so much and so badly because, simply I cannot have him.
I know that it is a bit more complicated than that, but I think that has a lot to do with it.

03/11
I don’t really feel as badly about it as you would think.
Well, the fact that he’s fucking someone else and has the audacity to brag to me about it.
(but I suppose we are friends. Friends tell each other stuff like that.)
I have just been telling myself stuff like "Oh, there’s no way she’s prettier than me." and
"She probably is smart, but there’s no way she can compare to me."
and oddly enough that is sufficent enough for me not to get all emo and shit. I think.
Or maybe I am really just not wanting him as much as I used to.
It could be either, it really doesn’t matter.
Going to some state office today. So this will probably be incredibly long.

03/14
Except not really, because I got lost.
It’s fucking hard to text on the bus, really.

-Today 03/15-
I am sitting in McDonalds. The internet here is free.
I love it, actually. I buy a small drink and sit here for a few hours.
I am sure they hate me. I like going to the ‘ghetto McDonalds’ which is further away..
but there are no outlets there.
I don’t buy food at this one, I go there to buy the food. (Odd, I know.. but I don’t like spending money at this one.)
You get the cross dressers, loonies, and everything like that at the ghetto McDonalds.
Here, not so much. There’s a playground at this location so it’s mostly just kids and families.
I like cross dressers and loonies more, tbh.
I am at a loss at what to name this entry.
(yes, I haven’t named it yet.) There really isn’t anything I can think of that fits.
I will think of something and eventually come back to this.
For now, it’ll be minimized.
1:59pm-2:04pm

took me five minutes, hella.
-Suraque
(Stromkern- Stand Up http://www.youtube.com/watch)